Most everybody but me...

... gets a vacation at least once a year,
... has health insurance
... enjoys their life
... eeeeaaarrrrkkkk!

put the brakes on that thought Lynn.....

step back and notice your blessings.....

... not really meaningful, but at least present good paying work
... a family that loves me
... friends that love me
... doggies that love me
... a couple of 7 year old girls who adore me
... legs that take me most places I want to go
... a warm home
... a comfortable bed
... a paid for car
... I know of Baha'u'llah and His relevant Teachings
...
....

OK, so why don't I feel any better?

I TOTALLY understand why some people commit suicide.

They just get tired of feeling bad all the time.

And on top of that, they feel guilty for feeling bad.

AND you can't really talk about it except with other depressed people because everybody else shuns you if you try. They might get brought down or they feel helpless.

Better to just leave the depressed person alone.

So, now that person is depressed and if lonely, probably feeling even lonelier. Great!

it...now

it has been three months since i wrote here

I like snow, but I don't like sunless days in the wintertime. And I don't like having to go places when it is snowing or has snowed recently.

I like staying at home, but I can still feel snowbound.

I like being alone, but I can still feel lonely.

I like serving others, but I still could stand to have someone serve me occasionally. Take care of me, i.e. fix me a glass of water or get the oil changed in my car,...

that's enough for now