It is 9:43 pm local time and I just participated in the 5th Earth Hour.
http://www.earthhour.org/About.aspx
Sponsored by the World Wildlife Federation, it is a time for folks to turn their lights off for a whole hour. And during that hour you can reflect on what you can do about climate change. I spent my hour brushing and flossing my teeth in the semi-dark, since I did have a night light plugged in in the bathroom, praying, trying to nap, thinking about the planet and the reasons to conserve (not to be cool), going outside to see how many lights were on because other people didn't know about Earth Hour like I didn't until two days ago, interrupting Chase (who was trying to nap during the lights out period) to talk to Hunter about Happy Days and That 70's Show, washing some veggies for the casserole I plan to make tomorrow, wondering how many people I know were sitting with the lights out...
It was a very peaceful hour. And dark. I felt like using the computer would have violated the lights out policy, so I didn't use anything electronic for that hour.
Now life is back to normal. I sort of liked abnormal.
Saturday, 26 March 2011
Tuesday, 22 March 2011
Safety
It's important to recognize that interrupting codependent behavior requires that you define yourself and your wants. So many people scramble to fill the empty hole within, by focusing on the care-taking of others while ignoring themselves. So where does someone begin, to build their own identity? Fill the emptiness with more and more layers of authenticity. Risk disagreement which makes things more interesting. Practice the truth with your therapist or your best friend. Stop swallowing your real opinions, choose when to go along, instead of always being a pushover.
Growing up is learning to move from external supports to creating true internal strength. Determine your own curiosities as a beginning to learning more about your own wants. Understand the differences between yourself and someone else (whether it is mother, lover, sister, or best friend). Speak up and make sure you are one of the balls you juggle in life, instead of leaving yourself out.
It is worth repeating: The best cure for codependence is authentic disagreement.
Healthy conflict is not a betrayal of trust and niceness as is so often believed in this culture. Healthy conflict keeps dialogue intact and trust can build based on a more real relationship. The work of understanding differences is worth it.
Those who are codependent are very afraid of being alone; there is a scramble to stuff someone else into the emptiness within when a relationship breaks up. People who are codependent mistake enmeshment for love and can’t bear to be without it. We should all recognize the old saying “you can’t love someone else unless you love yourself” as true. Being alone is one way to learn how to love yourself. Face your fears and try learning to enjoy life alone without the safety factor of a built-in partner.
Give up the people-pleasing and hiding behind the false 150 watt smile. Risk more disagreement. Be willing to not be liked instead of being a chameleon. There was a sign in my husband’s office for his sales people that rings true: “25% of the people like you, 25% of the people don’t like you, and 50% are indifferent.” Keep this refreshing perspective in mind and learn to live with the reality.
Ultimately, people who are codependent have done themselves the greatest injustice by losing track of who they are. Pay attention to being annoyed. Underneath feeling grumpy is a buried want that you are ignoring and swallowing too easily. Speak up to undo the legacy of codependency.
All of the above is from an article I read. My question is how does one do this if one doesn't feel safe to do it? How do I retrain my brain not to go into anxiety mode if I feel I am displeasing someone? Now, I don't have the exact same response about displeasing everyone, just some people and just sometimes. I feel like I am conditioned to react with anxiety under certain circumstances and I don't know why. I want to not feel anxious, but I cannot help it. It just happens no matter what self-talk I do. I feel like hypnosis could help, if I believed in it. I am almost 50 and haven't broken from this yet.
Growing up is learning to move from external supports to creating true internal strength. Determine your own curiosities as a beginning to learning more about your own wants. Understand the differences between yourself and someone else (whether it is mother, lover, sister, or best friend). Speak up and make sure you are one of the balls you juggle in life, instead of leaving yourself out.
It is worth repeating: The best cure for codependence is authentic disagreement.
Healthy conflict is not a betrayal of trust and niceness as is so often believed in this culture. Healthy conflict keeps dialogue intact and trust can build based on a more real relationship. The work of understanding differences is worth it.
Those who are codependent are very afraid of being alone; there is a scramble to stuff someone else into the emptiness within when a relationship breaks up. People who are codependent mistake enmeshment for love and can’t bear to be without it. We should all recognize the old saying “you can’t love someone else unless you love yourself” as true. Being alone is one way to learn how to love yourself. Face your fears and try learning to enjoy life alone without the safety factor of a built-in partner.
Give up the people-pleasing and hiding behind the false 150 watt smile. Risk more disagreement. Be willing to not be liked instead of being a chameleon. There was a sign in my husband’s office for his sales people that rings true: “25% of the people like you, 25% of the people don’t like you, and 50% are indifferent.” Keep this refreshing perspective in mind and learn to live with the reality.
Ultimately, people who are codependent have done themselves the greatest injustice by losing track of who they are. Pay attention to being annoyed. Underneath feeling grumpy is a buried want that you are ignoring and swallowing too easily. Speak up to undo the legacy of codependency.
All of the above is from an article I read. My question is how does one do this if one doesn't feel safe to do it? How do I retrain my brain not to go into anxiety mode if I feel I am displeasing someone? Now, I don't have the exact same response about displeasing everyone, just some people and just sometimes. I feel like I am conditioned to react with anxiety under certain circumstances and I don't know why. I want to not feel anxious, but I cannot help it. It just happens no matter what self-talk I do. I feel like hypnosis could help, if I believed in it. I am almost 50 and haven't broken from this yet.
Sunday, 13 March 2011
OK, so the actions of one person DO make a difference
I already posted once this morning, but after attending the devotions at the Baha'i Center today, which were really more of a discussion than prayers, my mind began reeling on ways to be more mindful of the ways my actions impact the environment.
The session this morning was called, "Ecology, Spirituality and Ethics". I have long been a person who cares about the state of the world, including the physical earth and its inhabitants. I can pinpoint the moment when I first became aware that actions I take can affect people and places both near and far from me. I worked with a woman named Sue who I learned was a vegetarian and upon further investigation found she was vegetarian for ethical reasons as opposed to dietary/health reasons, although I am sure that was still part of it for her. Because of Sue I read a book by Frances Moore Lappe called Diet for a Small Planet. This was 1978 or 79 I think (I guess my pinpoint abilities are not that great after all). This was the beginning of a new lifestyle and way of thinking for me. I have gone through many evolutions in the vein of caring for...well...life I guess.
But for now, I will skip all of those and come to today. My great idea that I am pretty sure I won't be able to implement, but I am putting out the vibes so maybe someone will and if money is made from it, then perhaps the person who gets rich or gets the credit will be humble and generous. Here is my idea...
First, I need to give some background info. I already use cloth shopping bags for almost any shopping I have to do. Every once in a while I forget to throw them in the car, but I try to carry one or two compact ones in my purse at all times. So, recently I heard a statistic that one of the "earth friendly" stores in our area goes through 1,000 paper cups a day. That is in just one store. They carry this really great dessert I like called chocolate truffle torte (in mint or orange depending on the day). If I want a piece of it to buy they put it in a clear plastic #1 container with a lid. Sure I can recycle it, but one day I saw a guy come in to the store and bring his own container for the deli item he was purchasing and, though I have done that before when I was a stay-at-home mom and homeschool teacher at the health food bulk bins, I hadn't thought to do it at a deli. So I decided that any time I want to get a dessert there I need to bring a container for it instead of getting a brand new piece of plastic that was made from oil to put it in. If nothing else it would keep me from eating too much dessert. :)
I wash the container when I get home and put it in my car so that when I go to that store I can buy that dessert without feeling like I am negatively impacting the environment.
Which brings me to today. I was remembering that one of the things the No Impact Man did to not leave a footprint was to stop eating out. Well he didn't even go to sit down restaurants with washable dishes for several reasons, but for my purposes I am going to limit my idea to fast food restaurants. Other than just frequenting them less here is my idea
....the collective needs to invent a type of dish that is lightweight and washable, preferably not plastic or aluminum, that you can bring to a restaurant when you want to order food. You say to yourself, "What about sanitation?" Well, the idea is you bring in your dishes, they take them like a deposit on the clean ones that will come with your food or drink purchase. The restaurant will sanitize them and reuse them. So, when you get your food you eat it and either turn it in to a resturant for credit (if you can't hang onto it for some reason) or just bring it back with you next time.
It is possible that fast food restaurants will have to standardize dishes so they can be used at different places and you don't have to return the dishes from one place to the same place.
OR they could set up the system to where you just hold out a clean plate or box or wrapper to them of your own and they just put it in there.
It probably sounds pretty silly in some ways, but that is because we have gotten so used to it that we don't think anything about throwing away tons of paper, plastic and styrofoam from all the eating out we do.
I hear Starbucks will fill up your own glass or cup if you ask them and maybe even give you a discount. Lots of places could do that. Where there is a will there is a way. How do we get people and corporations to get into the swing of this thinking? First of all, we just talk about it with everyone. Share with each other the ways we save resources. Our planet does not have infinite resources. It's a fact!
If you have any other ideas, please share them here. One person, Sue, changed me and I know that my actions have affected others and it builds. ONE person CAN make a difference!
The session this morning was called, "Ecology, Spirituality and Ethics". I have long been a person who cares about the state of the world, including the physical earth and its inhabitants. I can pinpoint the moment when I first became aware that actions I take can affect people and places both near and far from me. I worked with a woman named Sue who I learned was a vegetarian and upon further investigation found she was vegetarian for ethical reasons as opposed to dietary/health reasons, although I am sure that was still part of it for her. Because of Sue I read a book by Frances Moore Lappe called Diet for a Small Planet. This was 1978 or 79 I think (I guess my pinpoint abilities are not that great after all). This was the beginning of a new lifestyle and way of thinking for me. I have gone through many evolutions in the vein of caring for...well...life I guess.
But for now, I will skip all of those and come to today. My great idea that I am pretty sure I won't be able to implement, but I am putting out the vibes so maybe someone will and if money is made from it, then perhaps the person who gets rich or gets the credit will be humble and generous. Here is my idea...
First, I need to give some background info. I already use cloth shopping bags for almost any shopping I have to do. Every once in a while I forget to throw them in the car, but I try to carry one or two compact ones in my purse at all times. So, recently I heard a statistic that one of the "earth friendly" stores in our area goes through 1,000 paper cups a day. That is in just one store. They carry this really great dessert I like called chocolate truffle torte (in mint or orange depending on the day). If I want a piece of it to buy they put it in a clear plastic #1 container with a lid. Sure I can recycle it, but one day I saw a guy come in to the store and bring his own container for the deli item he was purchasing and, though I have done that before when I was a stay-at-home mom and homeschool teacher at the health food bulk bins, I hadn't thought to do it at a deli. So I decided that any time I want to get a dessert there I need to bring a container for it instead of getting a brand new piece of plastic that was made from oil to put it in. If nothing else it would keep me from eating too much dessert. :)
I wash the container when I get home and put it in my car so that when I go to that store I can buy that dessert without feeling like I am negatively impacting the environment.
Which brings me to today. I was remembering that one of the things the No Impact Man did to not leave a footprint was to stop eating out. Well he didn't even go to sit down restaurants with washable dishes for several reasons, but for my purposes I am going to limit my idea to fast food restaurants. Other than just frequenting them less here is my idea
....the collective needs to invent a type of dish that is lightweight and washable, preferably not plastic or aluminum, that you can bring to a restaurant when you want to order food. You say to yourself, "What about sanitation?" Well, the idea is you bring in your dishes, they take them like a deposit on the clean ones that will come with your food or drink purchase. The restaurant will sanitize them and reuse them. So, when you get your food you eat it and either turn it in to a resturant for credit (if you can't hang onto it for some reason) or just bring it back with you next time.
It is possible that fast food restaurants will have to standardize dishes so they can be used at different places and you don't have to return the dishes from one place to the same place.
OR they could set up the system to where you just hold out a clean plate or box or wrapper to them of your own and they just put it in there.
It probably sounds pretty silly in some ways, but that is because we have gotten so used to it that we don't think anything about throwing away tons of paper, plastic and styrofoam from all the eating out we do.
I hear Starbucks will fill up your own glass or cup if you ask them and maybe even give you a discount. Lots of places could do that. Where there is a will there is a way. How do we get people and corporations to get into the swing of this thinking? First of all, we just talk about it with everyone. Share with each other the ways we save resources. Our planet does not have infinite resources. It's a fact!
If you have any other ideas, please share them here. One person, Sue, changed me and I know that my actions have affected others and it builds. ONE person CAN make a difference!
More Fasting thoughts
A friend told me today, and I like this analogy a lot, that the Fast is like a soul pruning.
'Abdu'l-Baha tells us, "Men who suffer not, attain no perfection. The plant most pruned by the gardeners is that one which, when the summer comes, will have the most beautiful blossoms and the most abundant fruit.
(Abdu'l-Baha, Paris Talks, p. 50)
He was referring to tests we endure, but I can see that it could also refer to the hardship we undergo sometimes during the Fast.
This is day 12 and I have been fortunate this year so far to be able to keep the Fast by staying healthy. I feel blessed. And yet I realize at the same time this realization which comes from the prayer for Naw-Ruz--
"For the doings of men are all dependent upon Thy good-pleasure, and are conditioned by Thy behest. Shouldst Thou regard him who hath broken the fast as one who hath observed it, such a man would be reckoned among them who from eternity had been keeping the fast. And shouldst Thou decree that he who hath observed the fast hath broken it, that person would be numbered with such as have caused the Robe of Thy Revelation to be stained with dust, and been far removed from the crystal waters of this living Fountain."
(Compilations, Baha'i Prayers, p. 260)
So, counting today I have 8 more days of fasting. I have often thought of my brothers and sisters in prison in Iran who may or may not be able to fast and not only does my heart go out to them, but I am strengthened to keep the fast myself knowing what a bounty and privilege it is to be able to do so.
Yes, there are times when I have thought about ways I might exempt myself from fasting, you know, tried to see if I fit into one of the "loopholes" that mean you don't "have" to fast, but then I remember that it is my soul that benefits from it and why would I want to retard my soul?
So, if you are reading this and are fasting or have fasted, I hope you feel the benefits of your efforts. I know I do.
"prayer and fasting is the cause of awakening and mindfulness and conducive to protection and preservation from tests...."
(Abdu'l-Baha, Baha'i World Faith - Abdu'l-Baha Section, p. 368)
Peace to you
'Abdu'l-Baha tells us, "Men who suffer not, attain no perfection. The plant most pruned by the gardeners is that one which, when the summer comes, will have the most beautiful blossoms and the most abundant fruit.
(Abdu'l-Baha, Paris Talks, p. 50)
He was referring to tests we endure, but I can see that it could also refer to the hardship we undergo sometimes during the Fast.
This is day 12 and I have been fortunate this year so far to be able to keep the Fast by staying healthy. I feel blessed. And yet I realize at the same time this realization which comes from the prayer for Naw-Ruz--
"For the doings of men are all dependent upon Thy good-pleasure, and are conditioned by Thy behest. Shouldst Thou regard him who hath broken the fast as one who hath observed it, such a man would be reckoned among them who from eternity had been keeping the fast. And shouldst Thou decree that he who hath observed the fast hath broken it, that person would be numbered with such as have caused the Robe of Thy Revelation to be stained with dust, and been far removed from the crystal waters of this living Fountain."
(Compilations, Baha'i Prayers, p. 260)
So, counting today I have 8 more days of fasting. I have often thought of my brothers and sisters in prison in Iran who may or may not be able to fast and not only does my heart go out to them, but I am strengthened to keep the fast myself knowing what a bounty and privilege it is to be able to do so.
Yes, there are times when I have thought about ways I might exempt myself from fasting, you know, tried to see if I fit into one of the "loopholes" that mean you don't "have" to fast, but then I remember that it is my soul that benefits from it and why would I want to retard my soul?
So, if you are reading this and are fasting or have fasted, I hope you feel the benefits of your efforts. I know I do.
"prayer and fasting is the cause of awakening and mindfulness and conducive to protection and preservation from tests...."
(Abdu'l-Baha, Baha'i World Faith - Abdu'l-Baha Section, p. 368)
Peace to you
Sunday, 6 March 2011
Fasting Ruminations
I love metaphors.
Just a quick little update. Today is day 5 of the Baha'i Fast and so far so good. I thought yesterday I was getting sick, but it passed and i was able to fast the whole day. YAY!
I had a visit with Damaris and we did stuff I really "needed" to do. We went shopping and I bought something new for myself that I really like in a non-thrift or consignment store. If I was on my own I probably wouldn't have even gone into any cool downtown stores, but I had a friend to "entertain" so we went into the Open Door and I got a very cool sweater/shawl thingy. Guess what color! You got it---green! We had planned to attend a prayer gathering at the Baha'i Center after dinner, but while out shopping we saw a poster for a play at NC Stage Company that looked really good (I love Scott Treadway and Charlie Flynn-McIver) so we decided to check it out. Usually when I go see a play I usher so it doesn't cost me anything because they are pretty expensive, but I learned last night that ushering pays even more now since the ticket prices went up about $10! It cost $28 for one ticket. But it was worth it! Hilarious play and I sure did need a good laugh. Then we walked over to the French Broad Chocolate Lounge and got some great dessert! OK, I tried to create a link to their website, but can't get it to work. I got the video one below to work and I am following the same procedure. Oh well,anyway, I got a brownie with vanilla ice cream. Yum!
When we arrived home I realized how late it was--11:30pm--and figured I should go straight to bed since 6am comes early and we would be getting up then to eat and drink.
One of the things I love about the Fast is how much more aware I become of so many most-of-the-time-insignificant things, which I am having a hard time thinking of at the moment. I gain a strength from knowing that I can do it. I also am mindful of people in the world who don't even get to eat the breakfast I had at 6 am and are hungry all the time or who don't have clean water to drink. We have a long way to go before the world is balanced in that area where nobody goes without the things they need to survive. Which reminds me of a video I want to post if I can figure it out.
http://www.wimp.com/wecould
Oh I posted this back in February.
Oh well, here it is again if you missed it or you just like watching it like I do. I have some minutes to type for a meeting tomorrow.
Since I am short on time I will call it a blog.
later!
Just a quick little update. Today is day 5 of the Baha'i Fast and so far so good. I thought yesterday I was getting sick, but it passed and i was able to fast the whole day. YAY!
I had a visit with Damaris and we did stuff I really "needed" to do. We went shopping and I bought something new for myself that I really like in a non-thrift or consignment store. If I was on my own I probably wouldn't have even gone into any cool downtown stores, but I had a friend to "entertain" so we went into the Open Door and I got a very cool sweater/shawl thingy. Guess what color! You got it---green! We had planned to attend a prayer gathering at the Baha'i Center after dinner, but while out shopping we saw a poster for a play at NC Stage Company that looked really good (I love Scott Treadway and Charlie Flynn-McIver) so we decided to check it out. Usually when I go see a play I usher so it doesn't cost me anything because they are pretty expensive, but I learned last night that ushering pays even more now since the ticket prices went up about $10! It cost $28 for one ticket. But it was worth it! Hilarious play and I sure did need a good laugh. Then we walked over to the French Broad Chocolate Lounge and got some great dessert! OK, I tried to create a link to their website, but can't get it to work. I got the video one below to work and I am following the same procedure. Oh well,anyway, I got a brownie with vanilla ice cream. Yum!
When we arrived home I realized how late it was--11:30pm--and figured I should go straight to bed since 6am comes early and we would be getting up then to eat and drink.
One of the things I love about the Fast is how much more aware I become of so many most-of-the-time-insignificant things, which I am having a hard time thinking of at the moment. I gain a strength from knowing that I can do it. I also am mindful of people in the world who don't even get to eat the breakfast I had at 6 am and are hungry all the time or who don't have clean water to drink. We have a long way to go before the world is balanced in that area where nobody goes without the things they need to survive. Which reminds me of a video I want to post if I can figure it out.
http://www.wimp.com/wecould
Oh I posted this back in February.
Oh well, here it is again if you missed it or you just like watching it like I do. I have some minutes to type for a meeting tomorrow.
Since I am short on time I will call it a blog.
later!
Tuesday, 1 March 2011
14 minutes past
past my computer curfew that is....
The Baha'i Fast begins in the morning. I hope the headache I have right now is gone before then so I can do it.
Better get myself ready for bed....lots of prep involved with that and it is already after 10pm.....
The Baha'i Fast begins in the morning. I hope the headache I have right now is gone before then so I can do it.
Better get myself ready for bed....lots of prep involved with that and it is already after 10pm.....
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